monday was dead. all blues, all painful. did push ups, sit ups and running, but fun. played alot, laughed like mad with yixuan and samuel. we ran with our bodies real straight and real showoff of our boobs. someone thought that we are imitating her. for goodness's sake!! you admitted this yourself. what a joke.

then theres this sec5 builingling.

WAHAHA!!

she pushed lynn and shouted at yixuan then they went to her classroom to talk to her. she shout shout and shout at the top of her lungs, with another bitchy girl telling us to go home study for our N when she needs to even study harder for her O. how shameful playing with the sec3s.

hmm, maybe we are better off as sec5s then them. o.o

whatever.

lessons as usual for today, nothing much happened except for the whoever's blog's incident. justin called me out during the recess assembly and talked with azah.

how pathetic!!

she was the damn one wanting to settle this on our own and in the end, acting innocent, being all cocky and told teachers about this. hello?! you fucking wrote about me first. you are just scared of showing your pathetic lil' blog because you said stuff about the teachers as well.

ah... if you ever come across this and it becomes a topic among this incident then you would deny. i know i know. haha!

open up your blog lah! then you got nothing to say. but you are so scared so you restricted your shit! oh my god i have nothing to say anymore. i just cant believe you can make up stories that well. you get what you deserve one day. i'll just stand by and watch free show. (:

sat at the canteen with rui jie, lene jie, huiying and jackson after school waiting for choir to the auditorium. why i never know him earlier? he freaking saw the op necklace before. but its such a long time ago when i had it. haiis. anyway, talked crap and then sat with net for awhile. he sat in front of me. =/ why at this time? why is it that coincident? i cant stop myself. arghs. o.o

the auditorium was really hot at first, rehersal was a disaster, everyone was talking and making noises. spoils mood alot because we wanted it successful. judith also said we behaved not that well. the singing was okay but the hall was small.

went meet up with fabian and saw derick with bl. went long john together and then went home.

its really tiring lah and we still have to perform tomorrow early in the morning during reading time. well, the concert's on friday anyway. wish us luck (:

going to bed real soon. waking up at 53o tmr.

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hey, fabian? i hope you are going to see this anyway. actually, i dont like you anymore. including him. you should know who im referring to. so im not trying to lie to you or what. im really sorry. i hope we are still friends. i hope you wouldnt stop talking to me even though i couldnt bring myself to be with you anymore. i still want you as a friend. im really sorry. please tell me how you feel after you read this. i still care because you are my friend. dont make me hate you. i dont. i love you as a friend, as someone who would care like how your good friends will. please understand that love is selfish, its unpredictable. i couldnt bring myself to tell you all these in my own words from my mouth. i couldnt face you because you may think bad of me. please dont cry if it hurts you so much, it'll hurt me as well. i dont want that. im really really sorry.

;i am afraid